She is going Back to her home

Maybe somewhere i don't want she should go back but i am also sured that i will be not in her life.

then today i got her message that she is going back to her home. 

     I am quite, but happy cause she is going back.

Somewhere i feel bad also that am again alone.   May be new one will be coming into life for lifetime.

          In this end of the Year My daadi died, somehow i also feel i miss her cause i was troubling her cause her madness but also my eyes get watered when i heard about her death.

          Don't know but somewhere i am feeling that my control is not on my life , my control is get disturbing because of unexpected things happening with her on a sudden timings.

         May be this thing happening to me as my backlog result, Daadi death & Expenses somewhere & Payment constant as same till now.

          My expectation with life is much more but don't know i am coming to home town back to back once for exam & now on death, expenses are more but handled. May be future problem get disturbing me that how will i handle those situations.

          Body fat is get increasing day by day for stomach may be because of lack of exercise or something else.